Time flies..........

I never intended to be a one-blog-a-month girl. I had visions of blogging every day, gathering followers in my wake, forging alliances along the way. Hmmmm, I hadn't quite factored in the Busy Life. No busier than anyone else's, but a combination of home, work, children and pets doesn't always leave room for much else.
However, I must update on the last five weeks. Big Things have happened.

I have stopped drinking.

I am sure I will provide more context for that statement at some point, suffice to say that it was necessary, a long time overdue, much longed for and exactly what I needed. I never quite believed I would be ok without wine as a crutch. Although why I needed a crutch seven nights a week, often alone, heaven only knows.......
Anyway, I have deliberately immersed myself in all things about being alcohol free for months, actually years, in the hope that it would rub off on me, and it finally did. I have been following an amazing blog mummywasasecretdrinker - check it out if not for incredible advice and info about not drinking, then just for the sheer humour and brilliant writing.
I have also read a boat load of books on giving up.
So, here I am, five weeks in, and feeling better than I have in a long time. Sleeping better, clear conscience, improved skin, weighing less and eating less (without the constant munchies that booze gives you).
Just to clarify, I wasn't drinking tons, and was totally functioning, but I knew in my heart that it was not good, mentally or physically, to drink every day. Not good for my children to think it normal to drink every day. I was more isolated and paranoid than I realised. I always felt one step behind. I totally believed that wine was what helped me out in social situations. I saw it as a TREAT. Now I am treating myself tenfold by NOT having wine. I am looking after myself properly. And the big thing is, I am leaving my brain and body clear to look after itself. No cover ups, no foggy shrouds of oblivion, no constant killing of brain cells day in day out. I am allowing my physical self to be me. And I am actually quite liking it. I go to bed at night feeling as if I have Done The Right Thing.
And that is absolutely priceless.

So, in my efforts to be Better from 50 I have made, for me, the biggest change first. Yee ha!

Here's hoping it's not another month before I get round to blogging again!